Saturday, August 2, 2008


I just want to make one thing clear.


I realized something today after saying good-bye for a year. I can't live my life looking forward for a year. I need to live my life day by day, because who's to say I'll be alive in a year. This is my senior year. I have many things to accomplish this year. Winning state, getting into college, making it through the year alive and happy. I'm going to miss him..... more then anyone, but I'll be here for him and I'm pretty sure he'll be there for me. I will never forget you.....

Also, if you stop dwelling in the past life is much easier. I was talking to my brother and he's so unhappy because he dwells in his past. Just realize that what happened happened and it made you who you are today. My goal in life is to die without looking back and regretin anything. I am who I am because of what happened. I've made many mistakes....I'm as far from perfect as anyone, but I don't regret anything that I've done.

Thursday, July 31, 2008


I just got back from Florida a few days ago....... My time there was short, only 2 full days, but it was the most memorible experience of my life. I got away from the city where I feel trapped and confined, and got to experience the beach from a "locals" viewpoint. And boy was that something else. The beach at night is the most calming, extraordinary sight one can witness. Stargazing is so different down there, also. I could see everything so clear. No big factories other then the military down in Fort Walton. I met some awesome, cool people who I will miss. But I won't miss anything or anyone as much as the boy from Fort Walton Beach who drives the red Celica. Although this trip was short, I have a feeling that it changed my life somehow..... I just don't know how yet. I guess we'll see. I have a full 365 days untill I will know for sure.